Jesus

Lately I've felt like God wants me to study the life of Jesus. I consistantly have issues with my attitude that I try to change, but always end up right back in the bible saying, "Ok, what passage should I study to learn how to not be a jerk?" God always shows me something to help me, but I'm so weak that I always end up needing to another study.
Recently we rented "The Passion of Christ." That movie is so real. It's so powerful. I didn't want to watch it, actually, cause it's just so disturbing. It's too sad and convicting. But I'm glad I did. It's so important to really see Jesus in his humanity sometimes. It's very important to realize he is God, of course, but it's also important to realize He actually became a man. And He lived a life...and I can study that life to learn how to lead my own.
To me, eye contact with a person is very importnat. It reveals alot. I can't wait until Jesus and I can look into each other's eyes. I just know that the first time I ever get to see Jesus face to face, and we make eye contact, in that second I will understand so many things and learn more than I've ever learned here on earth. And I've just felt like if I read through John right now and study what Jesus said, it's the closest I'm gonna come to looking into His eyes this side of eternity.

I'm also going through a devotional by Max Lucado called "Just like Jesus." I found his introduction very provoking.

"What if, for one day, Jesus were to become you? What if, for twenty-four hours, Jesus wakes up in your bed, walks in your shoes, lives in your house, assumes your schedule? Your circumstances don't change, your problems aren't solved. Only one change occurs.
What if for one day, Jesus lives your life with His heart? His priorities govern your actions. His passions drive your decisions. His love directs your behavior.
What would you be like? Would people notice a change? Your family--would they see something new? Would your friends detect more joy? How about your enemies? Would they receive more mercy from Christ's heart than from yours?
And you? How would you feel? What alterations would this transplant have on your stress level? Your mood swings? Your temper?
Would you still do what you had planned to do for the next twenty-four hours? With Jesus taking over your heart, would anything change?
God's plan for you is nothing short of a new heart. If you were a car, God would want control of your engine. But you are a person, so God wants to change your heart. "

That's the issue. Especailly for me. I don't go out and act out in outrageous sins, but I do stress out about everything. I let my emotions control my attitude. I have big fat mood swings. And yes, if Jesus was in control, it would definitely change my stress level and my mood swings and my temper.
So, I'm gonna look to Jesus and try to learn his mild and peaceful attitude. I'm gonna follow His footsteps through the bible and place my feet directly in them to stay in His stride. If anyone else wants to study Him too, you can tell me what nuggets of truth you find and we can do a long distance bible study together.